And Jesus, looking at him, loved him, and said to him, “You lack one thing…” Mark 10:21a
A couple of years ago I was a busy person. I not only had a full-time job but I was very actively involved at my church. A go-getter, so to speak. I had hopes of doing great things for the Lord and I did what I could to implement my ideas.
The ideas I had were good but the heart behind them was human. I became frustrated by many things in trying to implement my plans. In my frustration I would often pray to God to help me understand why things are not going the way I had hoped they would.
One day I heard a Pastor teach on the story of the rich, young ruler in Mark 10. This man was sort of where I was in his thinking. “God, I’ve done all these good things, what more can I do to get this right!?” Jesus said to him, lovingly, “You lack one thing…” The Pastor asked the people to think about how Jesus would finish that sentence if He was speaking to them personally. I knew instantly what Jesus would say. He said it to me then. “You lack one thing, would you stop “doing” all those things you are doing and just “be” with me?”
It stopped me cold in my tracks. Stop all the busyness, all the activities, all the things that were causing the frustration, and just be, with Jesus.
The thing is, I didn’t know if I could do it. Do nothing? Just be? Could I just be with Jesus and still feel like I was a contributing member of society? Wouldn’t I be boring? Wouldn’t I be dull? Where would I get my sense of value? I wouldn’t know how to define myself anymore.
When I realized the lies I was believing, it scared me.
It took me some time and much listening to God to finally make the decision to stop all of those things I was doing, things that brought me great joy and things that brought me great frustration. I gave them all up because I knew I was getting my value from them, not out of who I truly am. I am a child of God, the daughter of the King. My Father gives me value, my Lord defines my worth. I wanted to find my joy and my value in Him.